Grateful for a Diabetes 2 diagnosis…What?!

Last November 2016, I was at the office of my holistic primary care nurse practitioner, Kathleen J., when she started the appointment by asking me how I feel. I answered, “Great!” and I truly felt that way. She frowned then, and had to let me know that according to the blood tests she had me take, I had Diabetes 2. I asked her if she was sure it wasn’t pre-diabetes as my sister had been diagnosed with that. She said no, the levels were much higher. I went into shock and dismay! She proceeded to tell me that Diabetes 2 IS reversible. And told me I must start exercising regularly, suggesting walking daily since I do enjoy walking. She also gave me a stringent dietary plan, with no fruit, no grains and mostly vegetables and protein. After losing about 30 pounds (and keeping it off) in the previous three years, I knew how to eat in a low-carbohydrate way, and had been eating in that way, basically, before she talked to me. But this was even stricter.

She also prescribed some herbal supplements that might help, and told me about cinnamon and other spices that have a good effect on diabetics. She prescribed a glucose meter, and told me to check every morning to see what readings I got, and to record them and bring them with me during my next visit. She further explained how the pancreas stops working as well with diabetes and doesn’t assimilate sugars as it should.

I walked away feeling VERY depressed! However, I have great determination and I knew I would do everything in my power to reverse the situation.

When I got home, my husband said he wasn’t surprised, as being overweight is a big factor in diabetes. I found I felt shame and embarrassment about it, and even though I’m usually very forthright and can be confessional, I refrained from telling anyone else for several weeks.

In the end, talking to others did help me. Nobody I told was judgmental, and all were understanding and supportive, and shared diabetes 2 stories if they had them. To my surprise, one thing that I discovered is that several women who were extremely overweight had absolutely no signs of diabetes! During the first 4 months, I went to various healers, after reading about diabetes and holistic cures. I saw an acupuncturist, a sound healer, and also went to a couple of alternative healers who do light and energy work. In my study on the subject, I discovered that stress can really play into this malady. Aha! I tend to worry too much, and we made a big move in 2016 that was stressful – selling two houses and buying one, and releasing all kinds of stuff, because we downsized. The new place is sublime, but the journey here was fraught with many details and decisions that kept me up at night worrying.

I followed the diet as well as I could, with a smidgen of cheating but overall, stuck to it. I started walking every day, or almost every day for 30 minutes. The walks turned out to be a big blessing. I felt immediately grateful for that. My dogs were grateful, too! Previously, I spent time looking out the window at the beautiful forest we live in, and didn’t explore it. Now I could discover new areas and paths, and enjoy the beauty firsthand instead of gazing upon it. I took the herbs religiously. I pricked my finger every morning, and sometimes the reading would be higher than other mornings. I would get anxious when it was higher, and wrack my brain about what I ate to cause a spike.

Four months later, it was time for more blood tests, I took them and went back to the nurse practitioner. The results were better and I was encouraged. I could do this! She told me I could take the glucose tests a few times per week, rather than daily.

Then, I got a bit more lax in following the diet. I would actually eat carbs one day, not test my blood sugar, and then take it the next day when I had eaten better, thinking I was cheating the system but overall, tests for several months couldn’t lie. The next time I went back, the diabetes’ levels were higher again. I told Kathleen I had been eating just as well when upon reflection after the appointment, I became more honest with myself and realized I had been “cheating.” I felt weary of all my efforts to control diabetes, and I told her this was the best I could do. So we agreed that I would try Metformin, a common prescription pill for those with Diabetes 2. She told me it had a digestive side effect for some people.

After taking it, I would check my glucose levels and there wasn’t much difference. That was disheartening. Then I got the side effect to the extreme! I spoke to Kathleen, and she told me to go off it immediately. When I asked if there was another pill I could take, she said the next remedies are injections, rather than pills. I did NOT want that.

In my meditation time, I listened to my inner guidance, and vowed to start listening to my body better. I received the message that I should stop taking glucose readings since it upset me when numbers were high; that I should eat more fruit from time to time since I love it so much. I was also told that I COULD do this by myself, and it was my opportunity to rid myself of this diagnosis in a natural way. I felt empowered again!

After that, I continued eating in a low-carb way, but enjoyed grains, beans and fruit more regularly. I do love sweets, so would treat myself to dark chocolate and other low-sugar desserts sometimes. I ate less meat and more soy. I kept up with my joyful walks. I added another herbal supplement after talking to a girlfriend who also has Diabetes 2, and confirming the additional supplement with Kathleen’s OK. A healer I know suggested a concoction of ginger, lemon, cinnamon, and turmeric with warm water to drink each day. She suggested fasting, and after reading about it, I was convinced it would be helpful to bring blood sugar readings down. I often fast from dinner to lunch using the drink mentioned above in the meantime. Another friend told me about the benefits of CBD oil, for better sleep, less worrying and also to bring glucose levels down. I asked Kathleen about it, and she said although there aren’t enough scientific studies to prove its health claims, she was open to me trying that, as well, so I did.

In November 2017, I had more blood tests. I was feeling if my own remedies hadn’t worked, that I would go ahead and try injections. I was very tired of having this disease, and felt afraid the more I heard about how diabetes led to heart problems, strokes, and even cancer. Yikes. It really seemed crazy when I told others my plan for self-healing, and admitted that I hadn’t taken the glucose tests in all that time, but I also trusted my gut instincts.

Again, Kathleen asked me how I was feeling when I came in. I cautiously said “great” and proceeded to tell her how I didn’t get so tired in the mid-afternoon like I used to, and how I have a lot of energy and am sleeping better. She smiled, and let me know I was out of diabetic range!!!!!!!

I was thrilled! She congratulated on my own self-care to achieve this goal.

It feels like a dream come true. It IS a dream come true.

I am someone who has authored books on gratitude, and so I want to share with you how I could be grateful for a Diabetes 2 diagnosis. It has definitely changed my life for the better! As mentioned, I appreciate the pristine beauty around me as I take my nature walks, and they also calm my spirits if I’m having a hard work day. I am eating in a way that feels good and right to me, that I can easily sustain. I am 63, and I am sure I have extended my life, and since I’ve always wanted to live to be over 90, healthy both emotionally and physically, that feels wonderful and much more achievable again. I am a spiritual person, and I’m positive that my daily meditation and affirmative prayer time have helped. I am also filled with gratitude because I have learned how to be less distressed by examining worry (which never helps), and other fears I have, and letting some of it go. I am thankful that I can share my process and the good news with others, so that it may help and inspire someone who is feeling depressed about the same health condition, or another one. Most importantly, it has added to my self-love. I appreciate my efforts and celebrate the grand result.

Thank you, Life!

 

Deborah Perdue is the author of several books on Gratitude, www.graceofgratitude.com. She teaches workshops, classes and facilitates retreats. It is her passion to help others transform their lives, as she has transformed her own through her spiritual path, and the power of being grateful! Deborah lives in Grants Pass, OR in the forest with her husband and menagerie.

Letting Your Light Shine

 

 

Have you ever been somewhere, either at a party or restaurant or a store, and saw someone walk in and be completely blown away because something about them drew you in? I have, and I think what draws me in with people like this is that they let their light shine so the world sees it, not just those they love.

I was recently standing at a counter in a store when a woman walked in.  Even though three people had walked in before her, when she came in, all eyes were on her.  “Hello!” she said brightly. There was a shift in the energy and it felt like she was a ball of sunshine warming the air. There was a younger woman and older woman behind me, and based on their similar features I assumed they were mother and daughter. I overheard the mother say to her daughter, ‘She looks like you when you’re in love’ and then I heard the daughter reply, ‘She looks like everyone when they’re in love.’ They giggled and I smiled to myself, knowing what they meant.

This was a woman whose vibration was high and she was sharing her light with the world.  Not just with a beloved someone, or with family and friends, but the world.

Part of creating the world we dream of involves feeling gratitude each day and letting our light shine for all the world to see.

The mother and daughter in line behind me weren’t off track, because when you’re able to do that, it’s like being in love with the world.

Give thanks – feel gratitude – let your light shine for the world to see – fall in love with everyone – attract the life you dream of.

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Deborah Perdue, RScP

Author of “Grace of Gratitude Journals”

and “Grace of Gratitude Reflections”

and “Path of Gratitude Coloring Book”

all of these and much more at www.graceofgratitude.com

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PRAYER FOR THE LIGHTS IN MY WORLD

 

Oh Great Spirit, thank you for the many blessings in my life.

Thank you for my friends and family,

And the wonderful animals that have become part of the clan.

Thank you for the work you grace me with.

Thank you for the beautiful surroundings of nature I experience each day.

Thank you for the lights in my world, lifting me up, motivating me, inspiring me to be more.

I ask that you bless us all.

Shower us with an abundance of your blessings.

Protect and heal us physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.

Bless us with hearts that are filled with hope, faith, joy, compassion, kindness, and gratitude.

And spirits of generosity.

Minds that are filled with creative ideas and positive thoughts.

Bless us with job security, new jobs, opportunities for promotion, and a steady flow of work and income.

Bless us with financial prosperity and independence.

Good friends,

And a loving partner in a healthy, mutually satisfying, life-long relationship.

Give us all that we need,

For the highest and greatest good,

And we will accept your many blessings

With gratitude and love.

Amen

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Deborah Perdue, RScP

 

Author of “Grace of Gratitude Journals”

and “Grace of Gratitude Reflections”

and “Path of Gratitude Coloring Book”

all of these and much more at www.graceofgratitude.com

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LIVING IN GRATITUDE IN A CHALLENGING WORLD

 

I recently received an email from someone saying she’s finding it difficult to live in gratitude in a challenging world. She’s stressed out and depressed by the news and the state of our country, and she wanted to know how I’m able to switch gears from being exposed to all the bad news and then going back to my place of gratitude.

I am not a news junkie and my advice to those who are is to either find a way to shut it down through meditation or a walk outside as soon as you get your daily dose of news before it impacts you, or if you find it difficult to do that, to stop making news part of your regular routine. You are the co-creator of your world. If you focus on the negatives, then you’ll pull in negatives. If you’re stressed out and worried, how effective can you be in living a life of gratitude?

It’s not that I’m not interested in what’s going on, but I can be a hand-wringer and knowing this, I can only take on my world – my little circle of people I encounter in work, community and family. I’m in a very happy place most of the time, and when I falter, I’m much better about recognizing it and making a correction to stay the course on the path of gratitude. If I were to read the news each day, it would put me in a bad place.

I pray for the world each day. I pray for our country. I pray for Mother Nature. I am committed to spreading the word about gratitude, teaching people to connect with their Angels and Spirit Guides, and teaching other spiritual courses. I’m devoted to putting light into the world. I believe if enough of us live our lives in this way it will change the world for the good. I pay no attention to the news, most of which is not trustworthy anyway, because it prevents me from doing the work I was meant to do.

I’m sharing my thoughts about this in my blog for those who may have the same struggle.

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Deborah Perdue, RScP

Author of “Grace of Gratitude Journals”

and “Grace of Gratitude Reflections”

and “Path of Gratitude Coloring Book”

all of these and much more at www.graceofgratitude.com

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DAILY THOUGHTS OF GRATITUDE – Week of July 24

Daily Gratitude Week of July 24

7-24

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.”

– Marianne Williamson (also attributed to Nelson Mandela)

Some of my life I didn’t feel powerful, instead I felt powerless and dependent upon outside forces.
Later I shrank from my own power, and was timid and played small.
Today I am grateful to own and feel the power of my being!
There is nothing I can’t accomplish with determination, creativity and courage.
I know I am powerful beyond measure, with the help of my higher power,
and I am so thankful this is so.

7-25

“As the Sun shines upon my heart, so may my heart shine upon others!”

– The Upanishads

Let me remember that a shining, bright, loving heart is precious.
Let me take a break from the hustle and bustle
and shine my love light on as many as I can,
starting with my family who I sometimes take for granted,
and extending out to all I meet each day.
I am incredibly grateful to have such a loving, tender heart
and I choose to share it!

7-26

“We have no idea what tomorrow will bring, but today is overflowing with potential.”

– Allan Lokos

I am so grateful to be able to stay in the present moment — it’s not always easy, but so comforting and soothing when I do, rather than planning or plotting the future, which in reality, we cannot change anyway.

Ram Dass really had something when he coined the sixties’ term “Be Here Now” which is practically a cliche but so darn wise.

I seize the moment, rich with a multitude of possibilities, and open to the zest of life!

7-27

As long as the candle burns, there is time to make repairs.

Rabbi Salanter

Life offers endless possibilities and among those, there is the opportunity to do things differently.

When I make a mistake or err, I can always make amends to myself or someone else.

Life is a cornucopia of second chances and choices.

I am grateful for growing wiser as I age, and so grateful that my candle keeps on burning!

7-28

“How many times have I died only to be born again out of the ashes of my unbelief?

How many times has my precious God loved me through the tempests of my own doubt, fear and feelings of unworthiness?”

– Rev. Karen S. Wylie

I am so grateful for all the resurrections of my life!

With each fall from grace and subsequent ascension, I truly grow stronger.

All I have to do is listen to the still, small voice within that assures me that I am worthy beyond measure

and if it doesn’t matter in the Big Picture, there is no need to worry!

I am thankful for divine wisdom, and the remembrance of who I truly am when my mind niggles and falters.

—–

Watercolor artwork © Tara Thelen, from the Grace of Gratitude Journals. Photography by Deborah Perdue.

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Deborah Perdue, RScP

Author of “Grace of Gratitude Journals”

and “Grace of Gratitude Reflections”

and “Path of Gratitude Coloring Book”

all of these and much more at www.graceofgratitude.com

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Loving Myself Enough to Be My Own Advocate

 

Until recent years I was a people-pleaser. It was important for me to be liked by others, and if their acceptance meant my having to jump through hoops, well that was what I was willing to do. As I came to love myself more and more, I stopped this destructive habit in my personal life, but still found it painful to have difficult conversations in professional relationships. I just found it very hard to accept that I wasn’t pleasing everyone I was trying do a good job for. The more displeased they were, the harder I tried. I see a correlation between this dynamic and that of a child trying to win the love, acceptance, and affection of a parent.  It was only recently that I realized when it comes to loving myself enough to be my own advocate, it has to cross over into all areas of my life.

I feel so blessed, because when I struggle with something, God doesn’t say, ‘Forget it, you’ll never learn this lesson!’ Instead, I am tested again and again until I’ve mastered it. Now I know some would think a loving God would spare us the pain, but I believe we are here to grow and learn. This life is school, and death is our graduation. And God is good to allow me to take the same test over and over until I don’t even consider it a test anymore.

I had a chance to be retested recently when a client was unhappy with each attempt of mine to create something wonderful for her. I tried and tried and became frustrated by continued rejection, and then I came to a point where I realized this partnership just might not be a good fit for us. That happens, and it’s perfectly fine, so why was I personalizing it? As soon as I found this way to detach, I calmly explained I would not continue on with the project, she would only have to pay me for the work I had done so far, and I wished her well in finding the right person to bring her vision to life. I was surprised, and happy, when she told me I was the one she wanted to work with. So of course, at that point I felt I had to set some parameters for continuing on, which I did, and she accepted.

It felt liberating to find a way to nicely say, “Enough” to someone. I learned two important things. I realized that part of the reason situations like this made me so upset was because I was upset with myself – frustrated at not being skillful in handling things like this, with my inability to do so leading to my being upset with ME! The second thing I learned was that it’s really just a matter of finding the right words to say and the right way to say it, so I’m advocating for myself in an unemotional and fair manner, leaving the other person’s dignity intact. And this was easy once I asked myself how I would want to be told.

Thank God we never stop growing and learning. As I’ve stated and written many times, I am a work in progress. Neither God, nor I, are finished with me yet!

 

Photo by Ryan Moreno on Unsplash
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Deborah Perdue, RScP

 

Author of “Grace of Gratitude Journals”

and “Grace of Gratitude Reflections”

and “Path of Gratitude Coloring Book”

all of these and much more at www.graceofgratitude.com

541 862-7021

 

 

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